August 13, 2010

If I was a rich girl

After careful and well needed self analysis, I have come to the conclusion that I am a shopaholic. It isn't a severe case but I definitely have a problem.
I have spent so much money over the past few months on stuff, random stuff mostly shoes and clothes. I find every excuse to buy something or the other. I spend my time perusing websites for shoes and bags and clothes. There is this desire for material things that is almost insatiable.

Now if I was a rich girl na na... it wouldn't matter so much but I am by no means rich, far from it actually so it is a major problema.
I really need to get a handle on this because I think of all the money I could have saved but didn't and I am saddened by the lack of self control.

My goal is to start saving, no more spending. I have more than enough shoes to last me a lifetime or two and I just need to be more financially responsible. I want to have accumulated a substantial amount of money in the next couple of years and the only way to do so is to save.

God be with me.

August 4, 2010

On Being Real

Sometimes you find yourself in situations where you kind of question yourself and how others may see you.
It's always good to step back and try to see yourself in an objective manner and see the kind of impression you may leave on others.
I'd like to think I make a good impression. I know that sometimes it really shouldn't matter what people think but in many cases it does and you have to be aware of what kind of vibe you give off. You have to make sure that you are authentic, sincere and generally a good person.
I think it is so important that people have a good impression of me. Not everyone will like but but people should respect me.
I am working on building a solid character that will make a mark on the people I meet.

I'm in a situation where I am in a completely new environment with a very diverse set of people and I feel the need to tailor myself to certain groups of people. Not necessarily be fake or not myself but in a certain sense hold back a little of who I am at least until I get to know them better.

It can be challenging , especially when the people you meet are strangers and you are forced to live with them in a very close living situation.
It will be interesting to see how everyone's true nature evolves during this time. I know that there are others who are dealing with the same feelings I have, eventually we will have to let our guards down and just be who we are.

August 3, 2010

Teacher

I have taken on a new identity, that of a teacher.
If someone had told me that this is what I would be doing, I would call them a fool. Me? Teaching kids? psshhh...right.
Yet here I am about to embark on a journey I never envisioned but which has become a passion.
I joined Teach for America and I am really passionate about their dedication to eliminating the educational gap.
It is so heartbreaking to know that there are kids who leave highschool unable to read, never having the option to go to college and reverse the cycle of poverty that plagues so many people of color.
I want to be a part of a movement that sets out to rid this country of system which has failed so many students.

The task is great and I know that it certainly will not be an easy one but I am so ready for it.
I am a teacher and I want to make a difference.

"Be the change you want to see in the world." Ghandi