June 27, 2011

The End Draweth Near

Yay! Only 2 more days left of the school year. I am exhausted and need a break. I can't wait despite the fact that I'll be busy with grad classes and training. I'm just glad I don't have to be up at the crack of dawn and trek all the way to the South Bronx for the next month and a half. Woot Woot!! (Do people still say that?)
I will miss some of my kiddies, some not so much and some not at all.

Is it bad that I have some favorite students? These kids are super focused, smart and so well-behaved most of the times that they help make my job easier. I think I'm super tough but they love me anyway and they give me hugs. They follow me around and ask me questions all the time. I love feeling loved. My biggest desire as a teacher is to have an impact on the lives of my students. I want to be that teacher they remember when they grow up. I want them to talk about me and how I helped to make school just a little bit more fun and interesting. I want them to say how strict I was but how much I cared for them. I mean ideally, I want this from all my students but I know not everyone of them will remember that but I know my favorites will because I see them hang on to the  words I say, I hear them repeating all my crazy sayings and the values I try to instill in them.

I can't help but love these kids. I'm sure parents have their favorite so why can't teachers? Ain't no shame here.

Ciao!

I Am Who I Am

I spend way too much time on other people's blogs and sadly neglect my own. It's just that I have nothing really interesting going on in my life, I don't have crazy stories about a S.O, no soon to come or just arrived baby and no outfits to post. I would post about my job but after that one teacher got fired for the same thing, I think I'll refrain.

I spend too much time measuring myself against other bloggers and I have realized that I need to not do that anymore.
I'm working on just being who I am and give what I have to offer. That is the best I can do. So I may not have a hordes of followers but I have some readers who take the time to read my rantings and raving and I am grateful.
Until next time...
Ciao


June 17, 2011

Shoegasm

Went shopping with the bestie today. I couldn't find much that interested me in the stores we visited. On a whim we went to Nordstrom Off the Rack where I found this shoe ( there is a matching foot and I got them both).
I totally fell in love. There is just one problem, the heel of my right foor hung off just a little. I debated for awhile whether or not to get them and searched for a half size bigger but it was hopeless. I decided to get them any way. So what if I look like I borrowed my little sister's shoes. They are just so DARN CUTE!!!! I had to have them in my life. I have no idea where I'm going to wear them, but being the shoe whore I am, it doesn't even matter. As long as they are in my possession I'm totally happy.
Ciao!!

June 14, 2011

Learnings of a Teacher

I'm only a few days away from the end of my first year as a teacher. I think this has been one of the hardest years of my life but looking back I have become such a much better teacher and person for my struggles.

I have gotten new insight into my character from the experience that I would have never gained otherwise. My tenacity and resilience surprised me. My patience surprised me. I never thought I was a patient person but after dealing with twenty-three kids, I've discovered that I so am.

My passion for teaching and changing lives is greater than I had ever imagined. I want so much for my students that it sometimes drains me emotionally for all the effort I invest in them. I feel like the mother of twenty-three kids and it is not easy.

I've learned that sometimes a teacher is the only stability a child has.

I've learned that children need boundaries and when you give them they fight back...hard. You should never give up because they will come to realize how much you care.

I've realized that there are just some kids I won't like and that's ok. I still need to have high expectations and believe in that child's ability to be successful. That is not easy either.

Kids like strict. They prefer it actually.

I've learned that kids can read you like a book. They see right through the facade you wear so be genuine.

I've learned that I adore these kids that were thrust upon me in the middle of the year with no real preparation of what was to come and with absolutely no clue as to what to do.

Yay for the end! Thank God I'll only have this journey of first once. I'm happy for the lessons but I wouldn't want a repeat.

Ciao!!


Full Disclosure

One thing I have been struggling with lately as a blogger is transparency, well maybe not so much transparency but... I guess more openness. I have so much in my own life that I want to blog about and I admire people who are open with their readers and I am deathly afraid of full disclosure. I'm worried about the people who might read my blog and find out about my deepest fears and worries.
I have been promising myself that I would be more of who I am but it is so hard. I have seen blogs where people get totally burned for posting their views on their own blog. I've even had someone comment to me in a less than respectful way about MY views on MY blog. Well, that was but one incident and it kinda made me less than willing to be so vocal, but then what is the point of having a blog if not to be myself and share who I am with my readers ( more like reader)?
So, going forward I will try(this is a goal in progress) to be more open about who I am and what's going on in my not so fascinating life. Hope I don't bore my sole reader to death.
Ciao!! ...for now