sometimes life gives you way more lemons than you know what to do with.
These past few weeks have been very challenging for me and I've been struggling to get myself back to a place of happiness or even normalcy.
I stopped taking care of myself spiritually, mentally and physically. I spent many nights on my couch watching television as a way to distract myself from dealing with the pain I was feeling.
I remember reading The Fault in Our Stars a while ago and one line really stuck out to me about experiencing painful situations.
"pain demands to be felt"
So true. No matter how much I tried to ignore it, to smother it or hide from it, it made it's presence known. Often at the most inappropriate times.
Things are getting better. I am beginning to see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel, albeit a very long tunnel.
Although I am not a hundred percent whole yet, I've decided that I don't want to spend my time being absolutely miserable. That decision in itself is a challenge because most days I find myself wanting to sit and mope.
It would be easier than having to get up everyday and seek out the things to make me happy. Easier than talking myself through a moment of despair and definitely easier than summoning the energy to get back on track to being healthy.
Taking the easy road was never something I did and I don't plan on starting now.
With that being said, I will be getting on with my life which means blogging again and living a fun and healthy lifestyle.
You haven't seen the last of me!