December 31, 2015

Sayonara 2015!

It's the end of another year, well almost. Twenty sixteen is just around the corner and I say this every year but for real, the year flew by so quickly. 

As I'm apt to do, this is a time when I reflect on how the year went and what I accomplished. If I am to be be completely transparent, 2015 wasn't my favorite year. There were lots of challenges and I feel as though the second half of the year was just a complete wash. After my move back to America, life sort of just went into blah mode and it feels as though I accomplished nada. 
I began working as soon as I moved back which in many ways was an absolute blessing cause let's be honest, I needed a job bad. 
It's not my dream job and I often feel as sense of dread and disappointment when I think about going to work. 
A lot of the things I used to enjoy doing have been overtaken by constant lesson planning and just being exhausted all the time.  
Sometimes I feel so guilty and I tell myself I'm being lazy/selfish because I'm teaching in an urban community with at-risk kids and I need to be more selfless but I'm so exhausted by the pressure to give more of myself even when it feels like I have nothing left. 

I hardly cook anymore(you guys know I used to love being in my kitchen), I haven't been taking care of myself physically, spiritually or emotionally. I've been losing touch with my own reality and escaping more into other people's "reality" on social media. I don't blog regularly and my photography has suffered. To sum it up, I'm a hot mess. 

Clearly I need to fix things. There is no way that I can continue on this path.   
Let me just say however that coming home wasn't a bad decision. I am happy to be home with my mom and my friends. It's been great catching up, being present and rebuilding relationships that my absence had affected. 
I also had some really awesome moments in 2015 that have left an indelible impression on my life and always bring a smile to my face when I think about them. It wasn't all misery.  
My goal is to sit down and think about how to make 2016 a better year for me. My job isn't going to change, not right now at least. So how can I change the way I view it and how can I make time to do the things that bring me joy? These are the questions at the forefront of my mind as I approach the new year. 
I'm ready to begin this new chapter in my life and I want to do it with passion. 2016 will be my best year! 

December 29, 2015

Life Lately

Me and the fellas drinking Hurricanes
Holy hot dog! It's been forever and a day since I last posted. I'm alive y'll.
I would love to say that I''ll do a better job and not wait so long to post but the truth is, my life hasn't been that exciting lately. I do however feel like I am missing a part of me by not blogging and writing like I use to. Catch-22.

So what have I been up to?
Well I'm on vacation, wohoo. It feels so good to be away from work this past week.
It also feels good to be home for the holidays for the first time in three years. I spent Christmas at home with my mom and we hung out in our Christmas pajamas, exchanged gifts, laughed and had dinner. It was just the two of us. I loved it!

I did take a little trip though because that travel bug is very much still alive. I visited my friend Sanjay in Louisiana. It was a fun trip and I enjoyed getting away from New York even though it wasn't for a long time.
To make up for my lack of posting, please enjoy this visual overload of photos.
You will notice that there is a common theme in most of the pics.
I'll give you a second. Got it? Yes dear lovelies, I'm pretty much eating or drinking in every photo. If there isn't food in the photo, I was either coming from or going to a food establishment. Fo reals.
Admittedly, I ate way too much of course. I just love food. It would a crime against nature to go to Louisiana and not eat everything though and it was my civic duty to do just that.
Hurricanes at Pat O'Brians on Bourbon Street

Happy cause I'm sippin' on some bourbon

stuffing my face wit dem beignets

Of course there were Beignets from Cafe Du Monde

Some of the best fried chicken I've ever tasted courtesy of Social Southern Table and Bar

Boudin not my favorite but I ate it becasue you always have to try things at least once.

Eggs Cochon courtesy of the The Ruby Slipper Cafe. Ah-mazing!

about to disseminate this Po'Boy courtesy of The Little Big Cup (Sanjay owns this place and the food is amazing) 
alligator hunting in the swamps

Searching for alligators 
Thanks for reading. See you soon!